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Jansen Ko: Letter to a Christian Girlfriend

I’ve just spent my lunch time reading this super long note about the thoughts of a guy, a guy who had a Christian Girlfriend before and is utterly sad when he wrote and posted this note 3 months ago on Facebook.

Read on, if you have the time to spare…

Some Memories; No Doubt just Ramblings to the Passerby

When I first entered the National University of Singapore, I was the loner kid who did not bat an eyelid at girls. Girls, with all their idiosyncrasies like gossiping or buying pairs of shoes after shoes, were too much for me to handle. I was more interested in climbing, and girls only served to take away my climbing time.

You first approached me. You started giving me gifts, like chocolates and small cards. These little nuggets made a boring day suddenly exciting. In all your little notes, you asked about my life; you dropped encouragements; you made me feel special in a way no other person has managed to. Any unfeeling heart would melt under these circumstances.

In the one year that we spent together, I cannot remember a single unhappy moment. Sure we had disagreements, but we sorted them out as soon as they surfaced. Never once had we an argument. I still remember the incident when you crashed the car. To the best of my ability, I arranged for a mechanic to repair the damages, negotiated for a good repair price between the accident victim and the mechanic, and paid for all the upfront costs first. Do you remember how I told you then since you did not have any liquid assets; you could try to barter your fully stocked cupboard with the parties? A little nasty yes, but all for your own good. In the end, I still helped you make the payment with the money I scrupulously saved.

I still remember our overseas trips. Those weeks spent away from urbanisation, getting to learn more about each other, and gaining insights together. All these memories I hold close to my heart. But they aren’t important anymore. After one year together, without warning, you dropped a bombshell on me – convert or break up. I was devastated. I cannot begin to describe the hurt and anguish I felt. You’ve left me behind to walk the long road ahead on my own. I languished in my grief. I can’t even do the thing I loved to do most – climbing. All the fight has been drained out of me. How long will it take to pick up the pieces? I wonder. One Chinese proverb particularly lent me support: If you can pick it up, you should be able to put it down. In my desire to understand how a religion, which in its entirety claims to preach love and compassion, drove you to unilaterally and resolutely want the break up, I achieved revelation. Indeed, the learning process is accelerated when feelings are invested.

Undone by 2 Corinthians 6:14

Do not be unequally yoked together with non-believers. You believe that God created you in His image, and that He is ‘a member of your body’. Because of this religious doctrine, you believe that the resulting union between a Christian and a non-Christian is unholy. You believe that you will not be granted entry into the Kingdom of Heaven. You believe that if you commit the sin, you will burn for eternity in hellfire.

I realise now how you could be so calm when you made your decision to break up known to me. I collapsed with grief, whereas you could still go jamming with the rest in the immediate aftermath. You felt like you were doing God’s work, and you found peace in Him. I had no such consolation. My life just fell apart. In sorrow, I grasped at reasons at why you might be unhappy with me. Did I treat you badly? Was I overly possessive? Was I not spontaneous enough for you? All these queries drew a blank.

Only after reading the scripture did my hurt, disappointment and anger subside. I realised the very difficult spiritual position you were in. Just like how Christ is head of the Church, the man is to be the head of the house. I cannot provide you with the spiritual support that is demanded of me in the bible. The bible you believe to be the divinely inspired word of God.

A Reason-Driven Life

You shared with me how you attended Sunday school since you were in primary school and finally got baptized in secondary one. You shared with me how you were previously a naughty and unruly girl, and how religion has changed you for the better. Unfortunately, I do not share that same background as you. But like you, I am a social construct of our upbringing.

I used to be the typical nerd in school and studied diligently. From a young age, I’ve learnt to correlate good results with hard work. If I studied hard and obtained good grades, I deserved all the credit. If I decided to be lazy, took a back seat and get punished with bad grades, then I reap what I sown. I do not praise the Lord for everything good thing that happened in my life and vice versa, blame Satan for everything bad. Rather, I encourage and berate myself in accordance to my successes or failures. As a result of my firm belief in effort and reward, my grades have always been above average, if not excellent. In the blink of an eye, 23 years have passed. In that same duration I have lived without a God in my life.

Because of this upbringing, I am firmly steeped in reason and anecdotal evidence. Just like how you are indoctrinated in unquestioningly faith as a virtue, I am indoctrinated in intellectual scepticism as a merit. For me to convert to become a fundamentalist Christian like yourself, instead of becoming a half-past-six Christian (as one Christian friend has appallingly recommended me), I need to be surrounded by overwhelming, mutually self-reinforcing evidence. I embarked on reading the Bible, and within the first few chapters of the holy book I already found several distasteful contradictions. Contradictions I am unable to reconcile. At this point, we must decide if we think whether intellectual scepticism or blind faith more virtuous. Should a child be inquisitive and ask and question and debate or should he be obedient and servient and accept everything spoken to be the truth of the world? Perhaps I failed to read the Bible spiritually, or adopt its teachings with the same unquestioning acceptance as you did. If I were to become a baptized Christian, then all my queries have to be answered to me by the faith, one by one. Prepare yourself for a deluge of intellectual bombardment.

Big Bang Theory

Mathematicians have calculated that the probability of us coming into existence out of random chance is very, very minute. Therefore, some higher being must have created us. But this hypothesis creates more problems than it solves – the problem of infinite regress. If you follow the logical train of thought, if God created us, then who created Him? Christians tell me that their Judeo-Christian God is uncreated, and that he has simply always existed. There is no analogy, no basis for comparison against this argument in nature, and I cannot wrap my head around this claim. If I were to worship a God, then naturally it behoves me to worship the ultimate creator. Can you conclusively prove to me that your God is the ultimate creator? Just because you firmly believe in something doesn’t necessarily mean it is correct. If I firmly believe that there is a teapot orbiting around the Earth, then the onus is on me to prove my theory. The onus is on you to prove your God to me.

So many Religions, Which one is True?

How are we supposed to know which religion is the true religion? Just because someone follows a certain faith does not necessarily mean it is the right path. Perhaps no one religion contains all the truth of the world. Perhaps every religion contains fragments of the truth and it is our responsibility to identify those fragments and piece them together. Or perhaps there are no gods. No one can say for sure. There were 3200 religions in the world since the start of time. Since only 1 religion can be correct, then the other 3199 religions must be wrong. Christians say their God is the one true God, as do the Muslims, Jews, Hindus and more. And radicals from each faith are willing to be a martyr for what they think is the highest ideal.

Do you not see that the place of your birth determines your religion? If you were born in Japan, you’ll be a Shinto. If you were born in India, you’ll be a Hindu. If you were born in Tibet, you’ll be a Buddhist. If you were born in Norway during the times of the Vikings, you’ll believe in Thor and his hammer! The fact that Christians think a child to be the child of God, instead of a child of Christian parents, or Hindu parents, or Muslim parents, is unacceptable.

Do not all religions appear strange to those who stand outside of them? A case in point: when I recounted my predicament to a PRC friend, she found religion to be a ludicrous myth. Only an insidious force such as religion can break up such a happy relationship, she told me. She also shared with me how the Fa Lun Gong Movement is creating a lot of social problems in China.

Age of the Earth

Creationists argue that the world is 6000 years old. But science, through using several independent methods of radiological dating, has repeatedly proven the world to be about 4.5billion years old. Dinosaur fossils are tested to be about 65million years old. That the age of the Earth is 6000 years old is a myth. How Christians stand steadfast in their story of creation in the face of such staggering evidence defies understanding.

Noah’s Ark

Genesis 6:15 states that Noah’s ark was 300 cubits by 50 cubits by 30 cubits in size. Today, experts agree that a cubit was approximately 18 inches, yielding a volume (if perfectly rectangular, the most voluminous possible shape of three unequal dimensions) of 1,518,750 cubic feet. Into this, you must fit two of each of the 30,000,000 species on earth (60,000,000 creatures altogether), plus all the food needed to keep all of them alive for about a year when the flood raged. Even without the mind-boggling amount of food required, it is technically impossible to pile all the creatures in the ark, together with space for bedding or room to stand. Furthermore, Noah has to go the Arctic to collect 2 penguins, go to Antarctic to collect 2 polar bears, go to Kalahari Desert to find 2 meerkats, go to Asia to find 2 tigers, and get 2 Tyrannosaurus Rex to enter the ark.

Also, if it rained for 40 days and 40 nights, then given the severe drop in salinity of the seawater, most of the fragile marine species should have died out – something not evident in the world today. Given the above analysis, the story of Noah’s Ark cannot be true.

Bible not being a Good Moral Compass

God tells you to stone people who believe in other gods to death

If thy brother, the son of thy mother, or thy son, or thy daughter, or the wife of thy bosom, or thy friend, which is as thine own soul, entice thee secretly, saying, Let us go and serve other gods, which thou hast not known, thou, nor thy father; Namely, of the god of the people which are round about you, nigh unto thee, or far off from thee, from the one end of the earth even unto the other end of the Earth; Thou shall not consent unto him, nor hearken unto him, neither shall thine eye pity him, neither shalt thou spare, neither shall thou conceal him: But thou shalt surely kill him; thine hand shall be first upon him to put him to death, and afterwards the hand of all the people. And thou shalt stone him with stones, that he die (Deuteronomy 13:6-10).

Abraham makes an offering of his son to appease God’s whimsical wishes

And it came to pass after these things, that God did tempt Abraham, and said unto him, Abraham: and he said, Behold, here I am. And he said, Take now thy son, thine only son Isaac, whom thou lovest, and get thee into the land of Moriah; and offer him there for a burnt offering upon one of the mountains which I will tell thee of (Genesis 22: 1-2).

Abraham heard an imaginary voice in his head telling him to murder Isaac. He subsequently lifts the blade to his son’s throat. These actions demand unquestioning belief. It requires what philosophers refer to as a leap of faith. Earlier, God had promised Abraham that he would spread his seed far and wide for him. A dilemma is presented at this point. How can I possibly spread my seed if I kill my only son? That God ultimately did not claim the sacrifice is of secondary importance. What if one day, you hear an imaginary voice in your head, telling you to sacrifice your child? I can only imagine hapless believers, killing their children over what they think is God’s mandate. To people outside the faith, this act of abomination is nothing less than cold-blooded murder. Furthermore, this contradicts with the ‘Thou shall not murder’ commandment. So many inconsistencies, yet you can effortlessly accept where I find it morally repulsive to.

Moses the Prophet

Now therefore kill every male among the little ones, and kill every woman that hath known man by lying with him. But all the women children, that have not known a man by lying with him, keep alive for yourselves (Numbers 31: 17-18). Moses, who was angered at the Israelites merciful restrain towards the conquered Midianite people, ordered his men to kill innocent children in cold blood, and kill every female that is married to the Midianite men. What sin did the Midianite male children and married females commit that demands this genocide? The greatest irony is that it was Moses who brought down the 10 unbreakable commandments inscribed in stone. Given the savage nature of what you have already witnessed, it should come as a big surprise to you that one of the commandments were actually Thou shall not kill. Yet, here was Moses, ordering the mass slaughter of children and women in cold blood, not unlike the gas camps of the Nazis or the killing fields of Pol Pot.

Rape My Daughter as you Please

Now as they were making their hearts merry, behold, the men of the city, certain sons of Belial, beset the house round about, and beat at the door, and spake to the master of the house, the old man, saying Bring forth the man that came into thine house, that we may know him. And the man, the master of the house, went out unto them, and said unto them, Nay, my brethren, nay I pray you, do not so wickedly; seeing that this man is come into mine house, do not this folly. Behold, here is my daughter a maiden, and his concubine; them I will bring out now, and humble ye them, and do with them what seemeth good unto you: but unto this man do not so vile a thing. But the men would not hearken to him: so the man took his concubine, and brought her forth unto them; and they knew her, and abused her all the night until the morning: and when the day began to spring, they let her go. Then came the woman in the dawning of the day, and fell down at the door of the man’s house where her lord was, till it was light. And her lord rose up in the morning, and opened the doors of the house, and went out to go his way: and behold, the woman his concubine was fallen down at the door of the house, and her hands were upon the threshold. And he said unto her, Up, and let us be going. But none answered. Then the man took her up upon an ass, and the man rose up, and gat him unto his place. And when he was come into his house, he took a knife, and laid down hold on his concubine, and divided her, together with her bones, into twelve pieces, and sent her into all the coasts of Israel (Judges 19: 22-29).

This entire particularly nasty paragraph describes the inferior status of women, equivalent to that of playthings, as sanctioned in the Bible. The man offered his concubine to be raped, instead of fighting to defend her, as I would have done without hesitation. Following that, the same man desecrated her body when she died instead of providing her with a proper burial. I hope this piece of scripture shocks you as much as it has shocked me. In today’s civilised world, such acts of betrayal and moral destitution are considered socially repugnant, yet these are the teachings you meekly accept with unquestioningly faith. These are the issues that you must grapple with if you truly accept your faith in its entirety.

Cherry Picking within the Bible

Of course now Christians will be protesting, because they claim that Jesus, who has descended onto the world to die on the cross for our sins, has changed the world since the nasty days of the Old Testament. No doubt the New Testament is an improved version of the Old Testament from a moral position. The idea is that God had himself incarnated as a man, Jesus, in order that he should be hideously tortured and executed in order to redeem our sins. And not just the original sin of Adam and Eve, but all future sins, whether we decide to commit them or not. Ultimately when we die, God is both judge and jury in the decision to allow entry into the gates of the Holy City. So then, why does he need to die on the cross for us to atone us for our sins just so he can judge us again at the end? Why not just forgive us outright? Is he not supposed to be all powerful and all merciful?

In fact, contrary to what many Christians believe, the New Testament openly endorses the laws of the Old Testament. Think not that I am to destroy the law, or the prophets: I am not come to destroy, but to fulfil. For I verily say unto you, Till heaven and earth pass, one jot or one tittle shall in no wise pass from the law, till all be fulfilled (Matthew 5: 17-18). All scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness (2 Timothy 3: 13). It cannot be any clearer. The laws in the Old Testament are to be obeyed. It is downright shameful how Christians can interpret otherwise.

Christian apologetics reason that in the days of the Old Testament, we had to follow the moral, civil and priestly laws. For them, because we are not under a theocratic system today and because by sacrificing himself Jesus fulfilled the priestly law, only the moral laws apply today. This explains why homosexuals and adulterers were stoned in the past, but are not today. This explanation is flawed. The moral law is created by God, the civil law by whichever political system was governing the country at that time, and priestly laws by the priest. If God commanded that adulterers be stoned, then it is solely a moral law set by him. Do the civil or priestly laws have the right to interfere? Do you mean to tell me that the state or the priests have more power over the supreme Creator of your universe? How can Christians allow the moral law of their God be tainted by the secondary laws set by humans, especially since human beings were intelligently designed to be imperfect? I would think that if you were a true Christian, you would follow your God’s law to the letter.

As much as the Bible supposedly preaches values of love, compassion and mercy, it also advocates slavery, hate, pettiness, anger, jealousy and narrow-mindedness. Just one line from Confucius could triumph all the moral pretentiousness of the Bible. “Do not do unto others what you do not wish to be done unto yourself”. Imagine if this phrase was incorporated as one of the tenets of the 10 commandments (instead of the morally inept “You shall not covet your neighbour’s wife” commandment). It is obvious that the world will see much less conflict or better still, no conflict at all. Not to mention the irrational breaking up of a perfectly happy relationship.

Disagreement among the Different Sects

There are many different Christian denominations, all of which disagree with one another over which doctrine to place emphasis on, which church to follow, etc. The faith is spilt into the 3 branches of Roman Catholicism, Anglicanism and Protestantism. Under each of these denominations there are further sub-groups. For example, under the Protestant group, further denominations include the Anabaptists, Pentecostals, Adventists, Baptists, Calvinists, Presbyterians, Congregationalists, Methodists and Lutherans. Not forgetting other sects like the Puritans or Pletism that have died out since the 1800s.

As if the disagreement between various religions is not conflict enough, denominations within the Christian faith all disagree with each other. Catholics believe that Mary had no original sin, remained free of sin throughout her life, is the “Mother of God” and the new Eve. They also believe of her bodily assumption into heaven instead of death. Other Christian factions disagree. Seventh-day Adventists believe that the Saturday, originally the seventh day of the Judeo-Christian week, should be the Sabbath. Other Christian factions disagree. Mormons think that all drugs, including caffeine in coffee and tea, are a travesty to biblical laws. Other Christian factions disagree. It appears that conflict, not consensus, is a central theme of Christianity.

Debate over Homosexuality

Recently, the issue of gay pastors has been thrust into the limelight in predominantly Christian America.

In August 2006, leaders of the nation’s largest Lutheran denomination began a tense debate in Minneapolis on whether to ordain gay men and lesbians. The denomination, the Evangelical Lutheran Church in America, is considering lifting a ban on noncelibate gay and lesbian pastors, permitting the ordination of people in committed same-sex relationships. Let’s see what the Bible has to say about homosexuality. If a man also lie with mankind, as he lieth with a woman, both of them have committed an abomination: they shall surely be put to death; their blood shall be upon them (Leviticus 20: 13). Know ye not that the unrighteous shall not inherit the kingdom of God? Be not deceived: neither fornicators, nor idolater, nor adulterers, nor effeminate, nor abusers of themselves with mankind, nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, not extortioners, shall inherit the kingdom of God (1 Corinthians 6: 9-10). Is it not peculiar how the Lutheran Church leaders interpret the scripture in a vastly different way from how you interpret it? Such church leaders, with the power to influence the minds of all of their gigantic congregations, has despite the warnings listed down in the Bible, decided to go ahead with the vote to ordain gay pastors. Can you not see how religion is susceptible to starkly contrasting interpretations, and subsequently abuse? I cannot imagine the day when Singaporean church leaders decide to interpret the Bible in the fundamentalist way (that their religion is the one true religion and all other religions are profoundly false and necessarily wicked), and incite religious hatred against other faiths.

In November 2006, leader of the 30million-member National Association of Evangelicals in the US, Pastor Ted Haggard, resigned after being embroiled in a gay sex scandal with another man. The other party, prostitute and masseur Mike Jones felt he had to expose the hypocrisy behind Pastor Ted’s anti gay marriage preaching on one hand, but engaging in sexual activities with a man on the other. Pastor Ted has since been stripped of his ministry. Saying one thing but doing another? That’s old news to me, at least where Christianity is concerned.

A Holistic Interpretation

Here is what the Richard Harries, Bishop of Oxford, has to say on the issue of homosexuality. “Well if you take the issue of homosexuality, there is no doubt that more so in the Old Testament, but also present in the New Testament, that there are a number of texts, not as many as people think there are, but there are a few, that clearly regard homosexuality as wrong. But it is a question of how you interpret the Bible – whether it is right to extract a few isolated texts, rather than seeing the whole message of the Bible; the whole message of Jesus.” He says that in the past during the Roman times homosexuality as a choice is frowned upon; whereas from the understanding that biology gives us today, it appears that homosexuality is a circumstance. Progressive values espoused from such an authority figure in the religious circles are steps forward for mankind. Christians need to read the Bible in its entirety and inculcate the over-arching loving and compassionate message of Jesus.

If the Bishop of Oxford says that extracting a few isolated texts from the Bible is morally unjustifiable, then extracting the sole “Do not be unequally yoked together with unbelievers” line, and basing your decision to break up on religious dogma should be considered most absurd!

Worldwide Conflicts as a Result of Religion

I see how you remain blissfully (or should I use woefully) unaware of current world affairs. Whenever I point out conflicts arising as a result of religion to you, I notice how you always looked shocked. It is as if you live in protective little bubble your religion provides, and think it impossible how so much evil can arise out of a supposedly good thing like religion.

You are fortunate you reside in Singapore, where religion is kept separate from politics. Having the Internal Security Department hawk over the evangelical groups to toe them in line, though admittedly draconian, does have the merits of preventing religiously intolerant religions like your own from inciting racial and religious hatred. Case in point: Pastor Rony Tan shooting his mouth off in his sermons.

Do you not see that incompatible religious doctrines have divided our world into separate moral communities, and these divisions have become a continuous source of bloodshed? Indeed, religion is as much a living spring of violence today as it has been at any time in the past (Crusades and Spanish Inquisition). The recent conflicts in Palestine (Jews vs. Muslims), the Balkans (Orthodox Serbians vs. Catholic Croatians; Orthodox Serbians vs. Bosnian and Albanian Muslims), Northern Ireland (Protestants vs. Catholics), Kashmir (Muslims vs. Hindus), Sudan (Muslims vs. Christians and animists), Nigeria (Muslims vs. Christians), Ethiopia and Eritrea (Muslims vs. Christians), Sri Lanka (Sinhalese Buddhists vs. Tamil Hindus), Indonesia (Muslims vs. Timorese Christians), Iran and Iraq (Shiite vs. Sunni Muslims), and the Caucasus (Orthodox Russians vs. Chechen Muslims; Muslim Azerbaijanis vs. Catholic and Orthodox Armenians) are merely a few cases in point.

I sincerely hope that I have opened your eyes to blood spilt all over the world by people who fight over whose God is truer. You still think religion is always a force for good? Think again.

Radicalism

In 1994, Reverend Paul Hill shot Doctor John Britton and his bodyguard, James Barrett outside the doctor’s abortion clinic in Florida. The crime of the doctor, as religiously perceived by Hill, was the carrying out of abortion procedures for a woman who requested it. In a religious fervour to do his version of God’s work, Hill turned his back on progressive values and went against civil law. In a statement before his execution, Hill said that he felt no remorse for his actions, and that he expected a great reward in Heaven. In his last words, he encouraged others who believed abortion contravenes the word of God to ‘do what you have to do to stop it’.

This psychopath, who somehow managed to get himself ordained as a reverend, is telling his followers to go and commit more of such cold blooded murder of abortion practitioners. Has he decided to selectively skip the ‘Thou shall not kill’ commandment? In the course of his journey to become a priest, has the values of love and compassion and mercy (the same values that you probably hold dear to your heart) not been drilled into him? How can he commit such an atrocity and yet remain defiant even till his deathbed? Perhaps just like the peace you found in God when you decided to break up with me, he found his peace too. This same ‘peace’ has led to uncountable nights of me sobbing into my pillow. The same can probably be said for the wife and young children the doctor has left behind.

In Malaysia, dispute over the use of the word Allah in Christian doctrine had erupted in conflict. Churches were vandalised and set on fire by fanatical Muslim youths who believed that the word Allah belonged their faith and not to Malaysians who practiced other faiths. Retaliatory attacks were soon launched on Muslim mosques. How many more places of worship has to be defaced, how many more lives have to be lost, before you peer out of your cocoon and see the truth of the world?

Religion is seen by the scholars as false, by the commoners as true, and by the politicians as useful. Case in point: United States President George Bush Jr. told the American public that God gave him the mandate to attack Iraq. In a media boo-boo, he said that it was a crusade against evil. Crusade. The word rings a bell, doesn’t it? The reason behind the illegitimate invasion was to destroy the weapons of mass destruction Saddam Hussein kept, but they found none. They found barrels of black gold though.

Christian Leaders as Good Role Models?

AWARE Saga

Earlier I pointed out how the Bible is not exactly the best moral compass. Similarly, the actions of some Christian leaders leave much to be desired. A right-wing Christian group who perceived the campaigns of AWARE (a non-profit organisation), as being pro-homosexuality, storm-troopered the advocacy’s group annual general meeting and snatched power. AWARE saw a stunning leadership change when newcomers captured 9 of the 12 executive committee posts. Older members questioned their motives as well as the sudden influx of new members who joined AWARE just months before the AGM. The new team sacked the AWARE centre’s manager, a paid employee, changed the locks at the AWARE office and had a stand-off with old guard members who turned up later.

With four of the new exco members attending the same church – and having the same ‘feminist mentor’ in the form of lawyer Thio Su Mien – and all espousing ‘pro-family’, anti-gay sentiments, it is obvious that a religious group is trying to impose its agenda on a secular non-profit organization. Do you not see the problem here when religious people, no doubt in the zeal to do God’s work, go beyond simply evangelising their beliefs to attempting to pass their preferred moral practices into legislation. By their actions, the Christian Right has notoriously established a benchmark for religiously inspired activism that may well be emulated by people of other faiths. This is the start of a slippery slope. The consequences of skidding down that slope are unimaginable for a multi-religious society like Singapore’s.

Father Joacquim Kang

Kang was sentenced to seven and a half years in jail in 2004 for misappropriating $5.1 million in church funds while serving as a parish priest at St Teresa’s Church. I wonder if his followers will still have faith in him. Leadership by example, anyone?

Pastor Rony Tan

Rony Tan, the leader of Lighthouse Evangelism, an independent church with 12,000 members, ridiculed Buddhism and Taoism in his sermons to his church. The most appalling thing was that as he was inserting snide remarks and nasty untruths about other faiths, the entire congregation was laughing together with him. I shudder to think that some of my Christian friends may be sitting among those in that congregation.

Catholic priests molesting children

The catholic sex abuse cases are a series of lawsuits, criminal prosecutions and scandals related to the sexual abuse committed by Catholic priests against minors. Beyond the actual abuses, much of the scandal focused around the actions of some members of the Catholic hierarchy who did not report the crimes to legal authorities and reassigned the offenders to other locations where they continued to have contact with minors, giving them the opportunity to continue their sexual abuse. Again and again, we see examples of how these people with religious authority abusing their power and causing hurt and suffering in their charges. How many more examples do you need before you understand my unwillingness to be blindly led around by the blind?

Personal Contradiction between 2 of the 10 Commandments

Commandment 1: You shall have no other gods before me
Commandment 5: Honour your father and mother.

My father and mother pray to other gods. When they die, as the eldest son, I have the traditional duty to conduct funeral rites for them, which would inevitably conflict with Commandment 1 should I have converted to the Christian faith. But if I do not take up this duty, then I am guilty of contravening Commandment 5. A lose-lose situation. Personally, I place a higher premium on filial piety than on religious dogmatism. During his 2009 National Day Rally speech on religious tolerance, Prime Minister Lee Hsien Loong recounted stories of Christian converts who refused to do as their parents wished on their deathbed and ended up hurting the very people who have painstakingly brought them up for many years. Fulfil your parent’s deathbed wishes – to do or not to do? Honestly, I am repulsed at the actions of those ingrates and will definitely do as my parents wished to the best of my ability.

I found it ridiculously easy to reach this conclusion just with rational reasoning. There is no need to commit to a book to resolve moral questions of this sort.

Natural Disasters

Explain the 2004 Boxing Day tsunami or the 2005 Hurricane Katrina. When the waves of the massive tsunami crashed into the city of Aceh and when the gusts of the hurricane slammed into New Orleans, what was going through God’s mind? Why did God, in all his omnipresence and omnipotence, not stop the tsunami from crushing the lives out of hundreds of thousands of innocents, many of them children? What crime did the children commit? Hundreds of thousands of lives were killed in an instant. These were people of faith, dying! In New Orleans, did he not hear the prayers of the elderly who fled to the attics to escape the rising waters, only to be slowly drowned as they murmured their prayers? What kind of all-powerful and all-compassionate God is this?

Not surprisingly, the people who survived reaffirmed their faith. Praise the Almighty Lord for delivering us from harm, they would say. But do they not see that the same God who has supposedly spared their lives has also mercilessly drowned infants in their cribs? If you accept that there is a God, then He must be powerless, or evil, or He does not care.

Why is it that the Bible can dedicate huge chunks of texts to encouraging slavery, to promoting gender inequality, to curtailing sexual behaviour, to describing in gory detail how to punish adulterers and homosexuals, yet it cannot prophesize natural disasters of such biblical proportions? God told no one of the impending doom. Science did. Hours before the tsunami or hurricane struck, meteorological calculations and satellite imagery foresaw the imminent disaster. Meteorologists rushed to warn people to evacuate the danger zone. Without science, more lives would have been lost.

Isn’t it amazing how God can address the prayers of those who ask for good grades in their exams, or good results for their competitions, but fail to hear the prayers of those about to die?

Promising Young Lawyer Killed in Mumbai

Ms Lo Hwei Yen, 28, a promising Singaporean lawyer, was one of at least 188 people, including 22 foreigners, killed in a shooting and grenade rampage by 10 militants who terrorised Mumbai for 60 hours in 2008. Incidentally, she happens to be a devout Christian.

Why did God put such a promising girl like this girl into the world, only to claim the life back when she is at the prime of her life? Is the purpose of her life to die in the cross fire of some religious extremists?

Do you think the Muslim terrorists from Pakistan, indoctrinated with their highest ideal of introducing an Islamic state in South Asia and liberating Muslims residing in Indian-administered Kashmir, cares about the collateral damage? It saddens me to note what extremism in the name of religion has led to the passing of a beautiful yet innocent soul like Ms Lo. It should sadden you too.

Satan as the Convenient Excuse

Please do not be so foolish to think that Satan is the cause of all these evils. It was apparent in my conversations with you that you think that Satan is solely responsible for everything you cannot explain. In my conversations with more enlightened Christians, they tell me that Satan influences, but ultimately the choice belongs to the person. Father Joacquim Kang and Reverend Paul Hill should have known better. And if God is all-powerful, why didn’t he eliminate Satan? Or better still, why didn’t He simply just not design Satan?

For Better or for Worse? Till Death do us Part?

Much to my chagrin, there have been several attempts by Christians who earnestly invite me to their church time and time again. I appreciate their goodwill and kind gestures. However, my issues with the faith cannot be simply resolved by repeated visits to the church.

In one of your letters to me, you told me that you liked me for my big brain. I’m assuming that you like me for my intellectual discourse. Oxymoronic then, that what attracted you to me in the first place is also responsible now for turning you away.

This brain of mine is my blessing. It is also my curse. I just wonder if I were indeed intelligently designed by Him, why didn’t He erase my persistence in reason.

The heartache
Dull sensation in my chest
Never seem to fade away

There is no all-seeing, all-loving God which keeps us from harm. Atheism is not a recipe for despair. I think the opposite. By disclaiming the idea of a next life, we can take more excitement in this one. The here and now is not something to be endured before eternal bliss or damnation. The here and now is all we have – an inspiration to make the most of it. Atheism is life-affirming, in a way religion can never be.
Richard Dawkins, Oxford Professor and Prominent Atheist
Note Posted on Facebook : Saturday, 27 February 2010 at 21:10

I’m a Christian but me knowing myself, i’m certainly not one who is good or qualified enough to debate on the various issues being raised by this guy Jansen Ko.

No i won’t quote any Bible verse nor i will say that who is right or wrong.

Yes it’s quite saddening with the fact that a lot of things mentioned above is already written down in the History of Humanity and we can’t possibly change that.

This guy Jansen Ko might have read and studied on various religions and went through quite a lot of historical facts and seriously, i’m quite impressed with what he’s written.

However, i do think that there’s much more to study through the Bible and there are a lot more stuffs that he have not quoted from the Bible. Nobody will ever fully understand every single thing that is written in the Bible.

Short to say, Humanity and Humans, We, are sinful, how much we want to make ourself LOOK like as though as we’re one step nearer to God or MORE HOLY & PURE, we’re still full of sins. As long as we live in this world, we will make mistakes everyday. Leaders of the world making wrong decisions, interpreting the word of God wrongly and use it as an excuse for their wrong doing.

No doubt that this broke up hit him hard, after all, me and him, we’re the same, we’re just humans, we have emotions.

To me personally, it’s a good read and it made me think a lot of things as well as reminding me of how great is our God. Nuff said!

If you think you’re qualified enough to defend the points being raised by Jansen, feel free to do so, better still, leave a comment on his note on Facebook and of course, in a peaceful manner.
*Jansen, if you happen to read this, i hope that you’ve come out of the pain from the relationship and if you have spare time, do continue studying the Bible more =)



Christmas 2009 – WWJD

Just came back, went online, opened a few MSN chat and 90% of the people were asking “Eh, why aren’t you out?” I LOL-ed and asked back the same question and there goes part of my Christmas Eve 2009.

Was out earlier for church caroling in this house at Jalan Ipoh. Just one house this time and with that i realize i wasn’t doing this whole caroling thing since years ago already. There were years that there wasn’t any caroling plans by church, if not then i had my own plans with some friends.

Had this warm feeling i once had then when i heard fellow church members singing to the Christmas tunes. No i didn’t participate in the singing, instead i was just like being a listener enjoying it. =)

So while everyone is busy partying out there, downing who knows how many glasses cheering and shouting with their friends, here am i typing this post out. =)

What is Christmas all about then?

If you’ve attended any Christmas service in any churches in the past and DID pay attention, i’m sure you’ve heard of this passage before.

John 3:16 ‘For God so loved the world that he gave his only Son, so that everyone who believes in him may not perish but may have eternal life.

For Christians, Christmas is one of the best day to spread the Gospel out talking about the Salvation to the people around.


*saying a prayer for a fellow old church member

As for me, personally, this year’s Christmas is more about reflecting my relationship with God then, of course, showing some love and blessing people around me is what Christmas means to me as well.

God have been generously good to me all these years and especially in this year itself, i’ve been blessed numerous times where some some of them are bigger than i could have imagine!!

That pretty much reminds me that in the past few years, i didn’t really get anything nice stuffs for the ones i love, and so i used some of the money i earned with the job i just started a few months ago and got some nice stuffs for them.

What have you done this Christmas then?
*sorry lah for some friends out there, i’ve got some expensive stuffs for the ones i love (my family) this year so no Christmas pressie for you, you & you then, i still love you, don’t hate me ok??!! =)



Struggling Complications

How would you react and reply if you get a sms with these contents?

Let’s say if the sender is someone who’s someone close to you, say like your best friend, or your sister/brother or even your girlfriend/boyfriend?

and that was a sms i received 2 days ago.

then, just yesterday i received 2 more sms on the same matter.

Seriously, i couldn’t resist myself from feeling all funny and such getting such smses talking about a lousy driver and no offence to the female earthlings, the driver is actually a female and with me knowing that very one fact, i felt much more funnier.

but WAIT!!

the sender is someone important to me and its actually quite dangerous to be in the same car with such driver and so i’m quite “konpius

The stuffs that happen after i sent that sms, it went pretty far away where the topics were totally different from what i’ve shown in the pictures above already… and well

The whole thing developed into something pretty awful and all i can do now is to look up to HIM and hope that everything will go fine.

i just don’t know what else can i do anymore………..



Jesus, The Cross & Eternity

And You lived
You died
You rose again on high
You opened the way for the world to live again
Hillsongs – For All YOU’ve Done.

Once again, Thank YOU!! For the things YOU‘ve done, provided and blessed thus far.

Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies; and whoever lives and believes in me will never die.
John 11:25-26

Blessed Easter & God Bless.



EMERGE KL 2008 Day1 & Day2

I went for the 1st & 2nd day for this event. Its a 3 days conference with 82 Competitions as well as a handful of workshops.

The night sessions were the only sessions i attended for the 1st 2 days.

Was invited by a few people to this event and i’ve went to the one last year as well. So i understand how does this conference go on, its slightly different than other christian youth conference. That’s what i think. =D

Alright, there’ll be many many pictures below, so i will not talk much. =)

Enjoy!!~

DAY 1

I was late as i was rushing to Sunway after work. Taking public transport back home and then driving out immediately to Sunway in a traffic that was congested is really quite an adventure for me.


Our very own local artist, 溫力銘 Danny One was one of the performer on the first day. He accepted Christ in September last year.

A good news i’m sure, anyway i don’t really get what he sing in the song he sang. Its quite jaychou-ish… worst than jaychou. O.O

As expected, 刘耕宏 Liu Geng Hong came out to perform as well. He attended all the Emerge Conference all these years, both emerge conferences in Malaysia & Singapore, and of course the one in Taiwan as well.

He’s a well known artist in Taiwan and serve in his Home Church as a cell group leader leading a group of artists who are christians as well INCLUDING JAYCHOU. 刘耕宏 Liu Geng Hong was the one who brought JayChou to Christ.


Along with his wive, an ex Miss Taiwan, 刘耕宏 Liu Geng Hong & 王婉霏 Vivi Wang serve in their church leading a cell group specially for taiwan artists to train them and disciple them. For a good cause of course, to have more testimony for God.

Parade of Schools start shortly after 刘耕宏 Liu Geng Hong’s performance.

The Clap-O-Meter was introduced first.

and the parade of schools starts. Just enjoy the pictures yarh. =D

thats the very last picture of the parade of school competition in Emerge KL 08.

there was a sermon after that followed by a worship session.


Thats it, the first day. It was quite a fruitful session for me as i have been thinking quite some stuffs about myself & God lately. Thanks Steph for accompanying me then. =)

DAY 2

And again, i was late. O.O

I was in time to watch the Beauty Pagaent & Manhunt competition. No pictures though. Lolx


Here’s another competition on the 2nd day, the Arm Wrestling competiton. (picture above)


there was a special performance by some dance group. Didn’t really pay attention on what the emcee said. =X



I didn’t stay throughout the whole session on the 2nd day. Headed to a 2nd location halfway during the sermon by Ps Kong. I left the place with something in my heart/mind so it was a good thing.

I realize that yes i have reached the door already and the problem with me is i’ve been opening and closing the door repeatingly stepping in and out and in and out all these while. I have to go in and start to explore more.

anyway, i met some old friends there =)


Left – SzeMay.Me
Right – Careen.Me


Billy.Steph.Me


XuanWei.Me

So with the Asia Conference coming end of this year, i’m considering on whether or not to attend the conference. I know, attending such events is not and should not be my ultimate goal. I just want to see more stuffs thats all. Lolx. Those who understand will understand and those who don’t, nevermind.

Thanks to those who’ve invited me as well as thanks to Steph who “teman” me the first day. To some old friends, Nice Meeting You again!!

God Bless!!

Related Links :
City Harvest Church KL
Emerge KL 08

Will 刘畊宏
Vivi 王婉霏
Steph K
Careen



Children’s Letters to God

Just yesterday, I received a forwarded email and its about the stuffs kids write to God. I believe some of you have seen these “letters” wrote to God before but i don’t care, i just want to share it here in my blog. =)
Reading those stuffs they wrote made my day and that brought back memories when i was still a small kid back then, in Sunday School eons ago.


my church current kids in sunday school

Waving our hands, singing like there’s no tomorrow and playing around, screaming aloud, playing hide and seek, do handcrafts and most importantly listening to Bible Stories.

HAHA…..

So, here are some of the letters written…


Stapler – greatest invention??


ahhh thats sweet.. =)

Kids really say what they are thinking and these are the stuffs that make them cute in their own way, they act how they wanted to act without caring about how people think around them, some acts were pretty meaningless which you wont seem to understand but to them it is SOMETHING!!

hahahaha i was once like that, we were!!!

Just like this kid above in my church, do you understand what is he trying to tell people?? haha

i have no ideas…

Read on… =P


HAHAhahahaha, i did smile reading this above..


Alright i don’t know who is that person. Refer to Wikipedia here.

aiyo, if really got the lamp of genie then you can get more money and chess set already lar.. HAHA


Jonathan who thinks a little bit more/deeper than other kids.. lolx


it seems that peter hate dennis clark in this letter above… =X

ahaha i have no comments…

CUTE RIGHT????? =P

Among all letters that i’ve read, i love these 3 the most.. made me smile BIGBIG haha


wooottt….. Nan‘s parents must be very sad if they ever read this letter above =X


Larry‘s brother will kill larry in this case above…

NO THATS NOT OKAY!!!! THEY WILL HAVE BABIES SOON!!

O.O

Am i only the one having fun & enjoying reading these letters?? lolx
If yes sorry lar i syiok sendiri.. =X
Anyway, here is a verse from the Bible about childrens & God.


where Jesus says, “Let the children come to me. Don’t stop them! For the Kingdom of Heaven belongs to such as these.”
Matthew 19:14
and there’s a song that i used to sing in Sunday School when i was a kid….

Jesus loves the little children,
All the children of the world.
Red and yellow, black and white,
All are precious in His sight.
Jesus loves the little children of the world.

*smile* =)


PASSION World Tour Kuala Lumpur 2008

With so many fruitcakes in the event that night, its Amazing. We Malaysians are a bunch of crazy people i’m sure. In just one day, 268 Passion Blog have been flooded with comments and at the moment i’m typing this, there’re 400 comments on that post itself. O.O

JESUS Rawks huh?

Haha. Let me start writing on this post with 70++ Pics [2mb] yea.

It was really a complicated afternoon, after Sunday service + lunch, i was rushing trying to find ways to get to Sunway.

Thanks to ChrisTock who gave me a ride. Along with Chris was Ringo and Carol and i didn’t expect that haha but i’m glad with it. =) Nice meeting Ringo again and nice meeting Carol.

They were attending a function @ Nikko Hotel.

We reached there in time i can say, and went in the place through the CarPark entrance. It was hard getting an actual car park space, so Chris went for illegal parking. HAHA.

The first few person i saw when i reached there was Phoebe and Michel. Haven seen this 2 girls for quite some time already… ahh Kenrick as well. =X

It was nice seeing them again. Fellow PKs. The ones that i’m happy seeing whenever wherever. HAHA. I met other PKs as well. Read On. =)

There was a booth outside the hall. Selling PASSION related items.

Met up with Kelvin whom i know through blogging.


Michel Ong, OngKayJin, MichaelOng, Me la joshua ONG.
The ONGs!! hahahaha

We got in the hall soon after that. Gosh its nice going to such events where they have nice big stage filled with nice settings, lighting and etc.

Just look at the “Young” people there!! Although i’ve been to Planet Shakers Conference and Hillsong United Concert, they were almost the same, i was excited as well.


Ringo, ChrisTock, Me

Took a picture with Ringo and Chris and soon the event started. =)

They showed a short video clip which i thought was SO VERY THE nice.

Hello KL !

He’s the SON OF GOD come down…..

and the worship team came in and took over the crowd with their gifted skills from God. It was a really nice opening i would say.

Chris Tomlin was the first worship leader to lead us into worship.


I can only take pictures of the guitarist from the place i was standing. So no pictures of the drummer, keyboardist, drummer ya sorry. =X

The worship lead by Chris Tomlin was good and i wished it was forever.

Ps Louie from the PASSION team came out after that and share with us a couple of stuffs and even showed us a video of the crazy people in PASSION Manila, Philippines.

Although its quite short, but i can see that the people at Manila were really fruitcakes LOLx. Ps Louie even shared with us on the origin of the song God Of This City.

then, Ps Louie requested prayers all over the hall, prayers for the people in Jakarta. For PASSION Jakarta which will be happening later. And other prayers.

Charlie Hall took over the worship later on with another band.

The guitarist.


The keyboardist (i’m wondering what are the equipments over there..)


The Bassist from far away.

The guitarist again as i was the nearest there.

Seriously, both Chris Tomlin and Charlie Hall was great, a servant of GOD, with a great voice and talent, they both served the Lord humbly and it seems that they are just having fun and spending time with God privately.

I was attracted just like that.

Not to say i idolize them, like what i saw in Guy Sebastian with the Planet Shakers team years ago, like what i saw in Hillsong United band that came to Malaysia 3 months ago, i was really amazed by how they can really be a someone who helped serving God in wondrous ways,

they are famous people/christian artist/christian bands around the world and they are really humble and down to earth. Its just JESUS and GOD alone in their eyes, mind, and hearts.

and i guess that’s why they succeeded in making JESUS famous in our generation. Attracting millions of young people in our generation, making an impact in millions of lives and preaching the gospel all over the world.

It was an awesome worship session.

After the worship, Ps Louie came out and shared about the word of GOD.


King James Bible – 2 Corinthians 5:15

And that he died for all, that they which live should not henceforth live unto themselves, but unto him which died for them, and rose again.

He shared about how Great is our God. Other than that, he also shared the story about a girl Ashley Akinns. She was a hardcore party goer who thought that she’s a screwed up girl herself, living with her boyfriend where she had a 2 years relationship with only to find out that her boyfriend cheated on her. She moved out and found a new place to stay and found out that her housemate is a crazy person. At least Ashley think she is.
*i was wrong here, the other girl moved in to ashley’s apartment and not ashley moving into the “crazy person’s” apartment. =)

The story went on and Ps Louie told the crowd about how she came to accept GOD, turned a new leaf and you wouldnt want to know what happen next.

Just 3 months after accepting GOD into her life, there’s this tragic accident which took away Ashley‘s life. Read the related links below on Ashley‘s life.

Throughout the whole time when Ps Louie was telling the story, we were laughing and cheering as he was reading directly from Ashley’s journal. We laugh because there are some funny stuffs she wrote in her journal, we cheered when we heard the part of her accepting GOD.

and the whole place went silent IMMEDIATELY after he talked about the part where she passed away.

I was holding my tears actually and my friend heard some people cried. It was sad.

Ps Louie ended his message around that time and the worship team took over once again.

Chris Tomlin was leading the worship again.

As usual, the songs were simple, with simple lyrics and melody,

but POWERFUL as it is, i could feel GOD moving in the presence.


I have been to various camps, concerts, conference and Christian youth events in the past and i am really excited and happy when i see such stuffs happening.

The crowd worshiping GOD whole heartedly.

Thier hunger for GOD.

The tears shed.

The worship warriors.

and the band

It was just GREAT.

Oh yea, did i mention that Ps Louie did a podcast? HAHA with us Malaysians shouting like psycho only.

I stopped attending such functions for quite some time actually and only started attending again 3 months ago in GTPJ for Hillsong Concert. Some people think that going to such events can make their Christian Life a little bit more perfect and such events can make them “burning” more for JESUS.

But actually, in order to continue “burning” for GOD, its the relationship between you and GOD that matters. Not these kinda events. Many people do have the wrong mindset that they must go to such events, its happening, people go, so i go. Thats a very wrong mindset.

Me on a call on meeting with friends.

Anyway, lets not talk about that. Maybe i will talk about it the next time.

For me, one of the reason of me going to such events is to meet up with old friends. Very very old friends. There is no need for planning and we’ll eventually meet.


Derrick and i


Danny, Me, Levi

Left Picture – June, Levi, Me
Right Picture – Joel, Me


Left Picture – TeeJuan, Me
Right Picture – Anna, Me


Edrian, YongMay(finally i met you!!), Anna, Me


The people i came with to this event.- ChrisTock, Ringo, Carol, Me

There’re some other people who were there but i didn’t managed to take a picture with them. Cassie, Sandra, Sher-Lynn, Isaac, SiewVern, PhoebeTan and AbishuaTan and etc.


Some random stupid stuffs PKs does. =p


Michel and Kenrick

Thanks to Kenrick who gave me a ride, i joined Michel and Michael along with their church mates who came all the way from Kuantan for supper.


Michel, Philip, Michael, David, Angela, Jeremy, Raynor, Kenrick

It was a very tiring day for me, but i was happy. =P


Thanks to the crew who made this event a successful one.


The crowd after the event.

Thanks to ChrisTock, Kenrick and Jeremy who gave me a ride.
Thanks to Kelvin who taught me how to use the DSLR.
Thanks to Andrew who borrowed me his DSLR, D40 to take the pictures in the event.

and at last thank GOD for making all these possible,

I first attended a big christian youth event back in 1999, JamWithTheLamb 99.

This will not be the last one. Thank GOD for everything he made possible for me.

and now,

Passion Jakarta which is going to happen in a couple of hours. I’m sure it will be a blast! =)

Related Links :
268 Blog Updated- Passion World Tour @ Sunway Convention Centre, Kuala Lumpur 2008.[Must Read]
268 Blog Jan2007 Ashley’s Letter to Ps Louie[Must Read]
268 Blog May2007 After Ashley Passed Away[Must Read]
268 Blog April 2008 Ashley Akinns – The Day Unending Life Began.[Must Read]
Passion World Tour Website
Passion World Tour Kuala Lumpur
Passion World Tour KL Facebook
Passion Conferences Blog

*i know the pictures above are a bit sucky.. sorry.. i’m a noob DSLR user… =X